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Sunday, August 28, 2005
Never Worked That HarD For Sometime Now..
Wowee..It's over!yay!!
I just came back from Marine Parade. My cousin Kak Siti, just got married today to Abang Irzam. My cousin looked so pretty such that at one poit while wearing one of the wedding costume she looked mat salleh seh..*oops or isit minah salleh* tsktsk..
Well so i went over to Marine Parade on saturday like ard 4pm.There were already so many people there.You know lah all the makciks2, the bujangs and not forgetting the kakaks2.:P so the moment i came I was entasked to do the washing. Haiyo!!I though tthat was the guys job!!Well apparently it was lah BUT on the real day aje.Ape seh tak fair!!so yah i washed together with another cousin of mine. There were like so many periuks and pinggans to wash. People simply cannot stop eating sia. hehe*Cos apparently we did cook some food for those who came the day b4 too*Luckily as time passed by more and more of my little2 cousins came to help out with the washing. So then we went home at 12 to Cik mail's house. There me and 3 other cousin of mine were not to sleep but instead finish doing the bloody Wedding Cake!hehe sorry yah.*BUt the outcome was damn perfect sia!!wee wit*So all 4 of us spent like 4 hours flower arranging, hot gluing stuff, and pinning things one the cake as a decor and by the time we finish which was at 4am we had to go to Marine Parade again to assemble everything.*shagged* You should see the condition we all were in. CRAZY!!hehe everyone was so tired that we we laughed even at the lamest jokes. And ofcourse all the bitchiness came out too.hehe..We didn't care!We were too tired to actually sensor ourselves like we use to among our cousins.:p So we finished the decoration and assembling by 7am*We heard azan subuh,you should try one day, probably at m'sia lah possible, like go somewhere where you can hear d azan loud2 in the middle of the night* It was very touchin really. So then we went back to Cik Mail's house and slept for like 1 and a half hours b4 we had to go out again as we were the KENDARATS. yea!!It was a tiring 2 day non-sleep thing.
Everything ended well though at about 8pm.Everyone looks satisfied.Phew!:) The best part was that all the cousins get to meet again and lepak2 till so late2...It was gr8 lah tho tiring and body aching. An enjoyable rewang and wedding ceremony.Well the next one coming up in November. Go through it all over again..
* the best times you will ever have is with Your Friends & Family.
I just came back from Marine Parade. My cousin Kak Siti, just got married today to Abang Irzam. My cousin looked so pretty such that at one poit while wearing one of the wedding costume she looked mat salleh seh..*oops or isit minah salleh* tsktsk..
Well so i went over to Marine Parade on saturday like ard 4pm.There were already so many people there.You know lah all the makciks2, the bujangs and not forgetting the kakaks2.:P so the moment i came I was entasked to do the washing. Haiyo!!I though tthat was the guys job!!Well apparently it was lah BUT on the real day aje.Ape seh tak fair!!so yah i washed together with another cousin of mine. There were like so many periuks and pinggans to wash. People simply cannot stop eating sia. hehe*Cos apparently we did cook some food for those who came the day b4 too*Luckily as time passed by more and more of my little2 cousins came to help out with the washing. So then we went home at 12 to Cik mail's house. There me and 3 other cousin of mine were not to sleep but instead finish doing the bloody Wedding Cake!hehe sorry yah.*BUt the outcome was damn perfect sia!!wee wit*So all 4 of us spent like 4 hours flower arranging, hot gluing stuff, and pinning things one the cake as a decor and by the time we finish which was at 4am we had to go to Marine Parade again to assemble everything.*shagged* You should see the condition we all were in. CRAZY!!hehe everyone was so tired that we we laughed even at the lamest jokes. And ofcourse all the bitchiness came out too.hehe..We didn't care!We were too tired to actually sensor ourselves like we use to among our cousins.:p So we finished the decoration and assembling by 7am*We heard azan subuh,you should try one day, probably at m'sia lah possible, like go somewhere where you can hear d azan loud2 in the middle of the night* It was very touchin really. So then we went back to Cik Mail's house and slept for like 1 and a half hours b4 we had to go out again as we were the KENDARATS. yea!!It was a tiring 2 day non-sleep thing.
Everything ended well though at about 8pm.Everyone looks satisfied.Phew!:) The best part was that all the cousins get to meet again and lepak2 till so late2...It was gr8 lah tho tiring and body aching. An enjoyable rewang and wedding ceremony.Well the next one coming up in November. Go through it all over again..
* the best times you will ever have is with Your Friends & Family.
Friday, August 26, 2005
I have got to set my priorities RIGHT
Today is my last day in school. Well atleast for semester 2.1 that is. It ended with me scoring full marks for my BNT lab test.yeay!!hehe..What a good way to end it.I will then have SIP nest sem insyaallah if i pass this semester. So in 2 weeks time i will have my exams..mm BUck up yaya..U can do it..
Well today at 8pm I will have a sales appointment with MUM aka Mdm Adibah. I really hope it will turn out well. i can only just cross my fingers and see how it goes. :)
Now lets see what do I mean when i say I have to set my priorities right. Well its on everything.My studies, my life, sham..
My studies--> I will so need to buck up. I know i did not do very well this semester what with the sham episode. Studies are very important in our lives.Without it you can never go far.True at the end of the day its just a piece of paper that u get to bring home BUT that piece of paper is evidence to bring you to a BETTER and a BriGHT future. All other unneccessary matters can be put aside and thought of when exams are over..
My life--> What about my life??mm that's what i'm trying to figure out..What do i wana do when i graduate?Well besides going to UNiversity, what else?On top of that i am now working part time at a company called healthwise. The people i meet there are fun to be with. The closer you get with them they better "kaki's" they are. I have fun at times But when i work its work too..hehe..But no pressure..phew>
sham--> haix..what about sham? it has been like 2 months plus already since we 'broke up'. Yet i still think of him. Why? I would not know such that im confused myself what isit about him that i want?What isit about him that i can't forget about?I've talked to alot of my friends about him. Everyone tells me never to contact him back but i was being my stubborn self again..haix..I keep on telling myself to forget him so right now i only treat him as a big brother but it seems so hard nowadays.Like i think of him almost everyday.argghh!! he has a girlfriend.I should respect that right??I mean i would not want my boyfriend to be so close to another girl. But why isit so hard to do?There was one converstaion me and sham had last monday on 22/8/05. We were talking about problems we have. I then told him that i won't tell you my problems lah, you just worry about yana k..and he answered you still duno me well. i do not know what it means.my guy friend tells me "to say he is a jerk for what he did to you, he is not lah. Because he went back to yana as he felt a sense of responsibility after doin s** with her alot of times.To say he is a confused guy to he is not. Seriously i think the one he likes is YOU but cause of the responsibility he went back to her.If they had not done it, I feel right now you two would have been together."haix..could it be??I DUNO!!There are so many possibilities..It could be that he really loves her too..I just have to face facts right??I pray, I read the quran i ask for help from HIM but its like so long before help comes..*heartbreak* Set my priorities right. That's what i need to do!Help me..
* If there is something in your life you don’t want, stop worrying about it and stop talking about it!*
Well today at 8pm I will have a sales appointment with MUM aka Mdm Adibah. I really hope it will turn out well. i can only just cross my fingers and see how it goes. :)
Now lets see what do I mean when i say I have to set my priorities right. Well its on everything.My studies, my life, sham..
My studies--> I will so need to buck up. I know i did not do very well this semester what with the sham episode. Studies are very important in our lives.Without it you can never go far.True at the end of the day its just a piece of paper that u get to bring home BUT that piece of paper is evidence to bring you to a BETTER and a BriGHT future. All other unneccessary matters can be put aside and thought of when exams are over..
My life--> What about my life??mm that's what i'm trying to figure out..What do i wana do when i graduate?Well besides going to UNiversity, what else?On top of that i am now working part time at a company called healthwise. The people i meet there are fun to be with. The closer you get with them they better "kaki's" they are. I have fun at times But when i work its work too..hehe..But no pressure..phew>
sham--> haix..what about sham? it has been like 2 months plus already since we 'broke up'. Yet i still think of him. Why? I would not know such that im confused myself what isit about him that i want?What isit about him that i can't forget about?I've talked to alot of my friends about him. Everyone tells me never to contact him back but i was being my stubborn self again..haix..I keep on telling myself to forget him so right now i only treat him as a big brother but it seems so hard nowadays.Like i think of him almost everyday.argghh!! he has a girlfriend.I should respect that right??I mean i would not want my boyfriend to be so close to another girl. But why isit so hard to do?There was one converstaion me and sham had last monday on 22/8/05. We were talking about problems we have. I then told him that i won't tell you my problems lah, you just worry about yana k..and he answered you still duno me well. i do not know what it means.my guy friend tells me "to say he is a jerk for what he did to you, he is not lah. Because he went back to yana as he felt a sense of responsibility after doin s** with her alot of times.To say he is a confused guy to he is not. Seriously i think the one he likes is YOU but cause of the responsibility he went back to her.If they had not done it, I feel right now you two would have been together."haix..could it be??I DUNO!!There are so many possibilities..It could be that he really loves her too..I just have to face facts right??I pray, I read the quran i ask for help from HIM but its like so long before help comes..*heartbreak* Set my priorities right. That's what i need to do!Help me..
* If there is something in your life you don’t want, stop worrying about it and stop talking about it!*
Monday, August 22, 2005
yes OR no??
what's up wif me??
do i still like him?or do i just think of him becos i could not get him??
i Am one confused girl right now??
i was at bugis the other day(saturday);20th august. i ate with my friend at long john's silver where yana works..it went like this..
it was around 8+ pm. so we went in long john and i saw her straight away..purposely i went up to her counter to order my food..she is this dark, short girl and yes what sham's mother say is true. she has a 'moncong' face. She wears spectacles.. My friend Azilah, who did not know anything about this sham, yana episode said " I thought dia makcik2 maner seh". When i showed her sham she told me " dayah, if u tell me u were the one who liked him, i don't know what to say..cause he is so ugly"..hehe..farnie sia she..mm apparently she is not the only one who said that. My cousins and some of my closest friends said that too..However i'm sure all of us would agree that LOVe is BLind! so after hearing all this comments from my friend i'm still wondering why isit then that i still like him?what isit about him that i want? I treat him as my big bro..But sometimes when i talk to him or meet him i want it to be more.
*why?why?why? *
i have got to set my principles straight man...Allah tolonglah aku!haix..
well apart from that i am now an 'agent' in a company called healthwise. i sell stuff and erm well all that u would not be interested lah..ITs aomething like an MLM. its damn hard man..having to find people to buy d products and all..then having to open an acoount and all..haiyo..then wanting people to join d company as my directs..very sianx..BUt the people i meet is the best part..we make new friends..new networks..i got to meet jimmy, joel, syam, pie, pau, nurul, dorothy and more lah..it was oklah!!
do i still like him?or do i just think of him becos i could not get him??
i Am one confused girl right now??
i was at bugis the other day(saturday);20th august. i ate with my friend at long john's silver where yana works..it went like this..
it was around 8+ pm. so we went in long john and i saw her straight away..purposely i went up to her counter to order my food..she is this dark, short girl and yes what sham's mother say is true. she has a 'moncong' face. She wears spectacles.. My friend Azilah, who did not know anything about this sham, yana episode said " I thought dia makcik2 maner seh". When i showed her sham she told me " dayah, if u tell me u were the one who liked him, i don't know what to say..cause he is so ugly"..hehe..farnie sia she..mm apparently she is not the only one who said that. My cousins and some of my closest friends said that too..However i'm sure all of us would agree that LOVe is BLind! so after hearing all this comments from my friend i'm still wondering why isit then that i still like him?what isit about him that i want? I treat him as my big bro..But sometimes when i talk to him or meet him i want it to be more.
*why?why?why? *
i have got to set my principles straight man...Allah tolonglah aku!haix..
well apart from that i am now an 'agent' in a company called healthwise. i sell stuff and erm well all that u would not be interested lah..ITs aomething like an MLM. its damn hard man..having to find people to buy d products and all..then having to open an acoount and all..haiyo..then wanting people to join d company as my directs..very sianx..BUt the people i meet is the best part..we make new friends..new networks..i got to meet jimmy, joel, syam, pie, pau, nurul, dorothy and more lah..it was oklah!!
then not forgetting my car lessons too...i cant wait..with a car license i can then go around to people's houses selling my stuff much more easily..lets aim to pass in 4 months yah..wish me luck peeps..!!14 sept is my btt!!:)
Saturday, August 13, 2005
mm My boring life
2 more weeks people then study week then my main exam!!arrghghh..i m so scared..i m so SLACK this semester..something i did not anticipate...only person who can help me is myself..BUCK UP YAYA!!i can do it...
sham stayed back in camp yesterday(thursday)..mls nk balik kot..so today he msged me at 1+ on his way home as he took half day leave..he claimed he was too tired..so i said ok stay at home Nd rest jgn nak merayap.then he told me later in the evening he going to his office in Bugis And also fetching yana home..i advised him to stay at home since he was already so tired BUt i could not stop him if he still wanted to go so i said yah do wadeva u want BUt just take care of yourself..i went home at 5 after practising on telcom principle lab with siewhuan and firah and at 615pm I got a call from sham's home..At first i thought it was sham's mum as sham said he was goin to his office in the evening only to hear his voice instead..so i asked eh i thought u goin office and he said yah later tgk ah mcm mane..so i told him " abg kalo nak gi leh tapi atleast lepas maghrib pls" at first he didn't want to listen BUT after i persuaded him he Obliged..heehee..to check that he wasn't lying to me i told him to call me after maghrib and i wana get d number of his house on my hp..he said OK NO PROB! and he did call at 714; a short miss call!abit b4 8 he called but apparently i was at my 10 storey house so i called back half an hour later only to find that his mum was using the phone..At 9pm he called back..we talked2 abit then he sounded sleepy so i told him to go sleep ah..he was quiet so i asked countless times and still he kept quiet.only when i said "ABG, adik letak phone eh?" then he answered " ah??abg kepala sakit ah tapi tknk tdo.."so we talked abit more then i said kk go rest ah u selenege ah abg..heeh. Then he flared up..he said " yelah abg selenge lah!!bye" and he put down..i was like shock so i msged him. then he replied " da ar dik abg tau abg tk lyk jadi abg adik..tk guna..haix..da ar nanti abg nak kua" i was like "ape ni!!penat beh maseh nak kua" so i called him back and we talked things over..so now its settled..and he is sleeping soundly..hehe..
yeah!!You people must have realise i always talk about this guy Sham..I duno ah do i still Love him??i got to learn to let go..I knw dat..i feel stupid that i still want him or mebe just think of him after all this..haix..But he also the same like dat..he cares about me too..like when i go home late he would ask who i was with, where i went, why come home so late..then sometimes he would ask are u online(on the phone?) if yes, with who..i duno what we feel for each other..we treat each other as abg adik...but mebe we are both kidding ourselves..I HAVE NO IDEA!!haix...
* the challenge of life is to appreciate everything and attach yourself to nothing*
sham stayed back in camp yesterday(thursday)..mls nk balik kot..so today he msged me at 1+ on his way home as he took half day leave..he claimed he was too tired..so i said ok stay at home Nd rest jgn nak merayap.then he told me later in the evening he going to his office in Bugis And also fetching yana home..i advised him to stay at home since he was already so tired BUt i could not stop him if he still wanted to go so i said yah do wadeva u want BUt just take care of yourself..i went home at 5 after practising on telcom principle lab with siewhuan and firah and at 615pm I got a call from sham's home..At first i thought it was sham's mum as sham said he was goin to his office in the evening only to hear his voice instead..so i asked eh i thought u goin office and he said yah later tgk ah mcm mane..so i told him " abg kalo nak gi leh tapi atleast lepas maghrib pls" at first he didn't want to listen BUT after i persuaded him he Obliged..heehee..to check that he wasn't lying to me i told him to call me after maghrib and i wana get d number of his house on my hp..he said OK NO PROB! and he did call at 714; a short miss call!abit b4 8 he called but apparently i was at my 10 storey house so i called back half an hour later only to find that his mum was using the phone..At 9pm he called back..we talked2 abit then he sounded sleepy so i told him to go sleep ah..he was quiet so i asked countless times and still he kept quiet.only when i said "ABG, adik letak phone eh?" then he answered " ah??abg kepala sakit ah tapi tknk tdo.."so we talked abit more then i said kk go rest ah u selenege ah abg..heeh. Then he flared up..he said " yelah abg selenge lah!!bye" and he put down..i was like shock so i msged him. then he replied " da ar dik abg tau abg tk lyk jadi abg adik..tk guna..haix..da ar nanti abg nak kua" i was like "ape ni!!penat beh maseh nak kua" so i called him back and we talked things over..so now its settled..and he is sleeping soundly..hehe..
yeah!!You people must have realise i always talk about this guy Sham..I duno ah do i still Love him??i got to learn to let go..I knw dat..i feel stupid that i still want him or mebe just think of him after all this..haix..But he also the same like dat..he cares about me too..like when i go home late he would ask who i was with, where i went, why come home so late..then sometimes he would ask are u online(on the phone?) if yes, with who..i duno what we feel for each other..we treat each other as abg adik...but mebe we are both kidding ourselves..I HAVE NO IDEA!!haix...
* the challenge of life is to appreciate everything and attach yourself to nothing*
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
wowee...
First of all Happy National Day!!singapore is already 40 weeweet..heeh
well i duno have much to say lah..just dat yesterday abg sham was on duty in camp..he called at 1 n i purposely didnt pick up..i guess i was thinking twice about wanting to contact him back or not as i said in my previous entry that feelings for him have returned..haix.,.But then i msged him at 3+ giving him d excuse that i didnt hear d phone ring..:p he didnt believ of course..he asked why i didnt pick up n i told him i told u wad in my msg n he was like yelah tu...well whateva..
then i went out wif my 2 close frens!!YUSriNA and IDaYU!!yus blanja me at amira's cafe at bugis for my birthday treat..terima kaceh yus!!!mwaks!!hahah..i ate "neptune platter'- it has salmon, prawns, dori fish, fries,and mussels..it was ok lah....after eating, we walked around bugis..at first not knwing where to go but not wanting to go home early we sat at the fountain in bugis..heee then we talked of yana!!how all 3 of us soo wana see how she looks like..then we went hunting for her..hah based on descriptions that i have heard from sham on where she works at..i rmbred sham telling me she works near shops where they sell $5 clothes..so we went searching for these type of shops..However to no avail..i think we searched at the wrong place ah..haix..i was dissapointed man..then abt 8pm sham called again from the office..we talked awhile and he kept on asking where i was and what time i was gona come home..hee..so at abt 815pm ayah picked me up from bugis junction taxi stand, yus n dayu went home on their own..
my family and i went to eat at harbour front foodcourt..after which we went to nenek's house..we stayed there till 1130 pm..ard 10 30 sham called me again...bUt i didn't pick up..however i msged him then that i didn't hear d phone ring AGAIn n told him to kol me bck ard 12..i reached home at 1140 like that when sham msged me..using web sms saying "elo adik, da amapai umah lum??" so i answered lah...then we chatted abit and abg sham told me to join alamak.com n chat wif him there..i did But it was so troublesome as i could not recieve his msgs and during this time he called me about 3 or 4 times...then in the end he added me on his msn..apparently he just started dis msn tingy..then at 115am my cuxins ajak kua...lepak kat simpang bedok..so i told abg sham im going out in awhile and he was furious..he was like" dgn sape??beh nak kua gi mane??for what nak kua??" he also said " honestly i dun like u goin out pagi2 buter gini tanpa sebab but lau u nak kua then up to u ah" so i told him i will just go, eat , talk2 then go home and when i reach home i will go online bck..he said ape2 lah..at 230 i was still at simpang and abg sham called..and the first thing he said was " lum balik lagi??" then he gave me alot of sighs and low voices..ard 4 i reached home and i went online..and i saw his msn nick " What_Takes_ U_ Soo_ Long" mm *thinking* was that for me??did he mean why i take so long to come home??niwae i told him abg i da blik n he said SO??i tunggu u sampai tgk U got Served..and showed an angry face!i didnt noe what to answer cox it was kinda farnie in a way..so i kept quiet..then he called at 4+ am..scolding me all dat..asking why go home late all dat..then he said " kalo adik nak kua blik kul 10-11 tu abg tk pasal tapi adik kua pagi2 buter abg marah...lagi2 adik perempuan tau.. kalo ape2 jadi kat adik sape akan menyesal??mak bapa adik jgak.." so i answered ah "ah tu ah mak bapak adik pe yg akan menyesal beh abg kisah uat pe??" then he said "abg nak prevent it from happening!" haix..yelah abg so i just said sorry..after that he told me to sleep and rest..and he called again abit b4 5 to c if i was sleeping..cox when i picked up his call he said " Eh lum tdo lagik??" we talked abit then he called again at 601am, told me to pray subuh.. then at 1047 today he called again to say he has reached home..
at simpang wif my cusinx!!it was fun!!hehe i was wif abg mamat, abg faris and abg din..i showed them sham's pic and they all laughed man!!abg faris was like "nape yaya nak dia??abg mat lagi hensem oi!!n abg faris advised me not to be wif him" talking to them once in a while really helps..cox now i do think u noe...hheee maceh abg2!!love ya!!
ryt now he is outside wif yana...he is goin to his ofis at bugis 2 apparently near to where yana works..so yah dat is what happend..:)
Loving people means giving them the freedom to be who they choose to be and where they choose to be.. Love is allowing people to be in your life out of choice.
well i duno have much to say lah..just dat yesterday abg sham was on duty in camp..he called at 1 n i purposely didnt pick up..i guess i was thinking twice about wanting to contact him back or not as i said in my previous entry that feelings for him have returned..haix.,.But then i msged him at 3+ giving him d excuse that i didnt hear d phone ring..:p he didnt believ of course..he asked why i didnt pick up n i told him i told u wad in my msg n he was like yelah tu...well whateva..
then i went out wif my 2 close frens!!YUSriNA and IDaYU!!yus blanja me at amira's cafe at bugis for my birthday treat..terima kaceh yus!!!mwaks!!hahah..i ate "neptune platter'- it has salmon, prawns, dori fish, fries,and mussels..it was ok lah....after eating, we walked around bugis..at first not knwing where to go but not wanting to go home early we sat at the fountain in bugis..heee then we talked of yana!!how all 3 of us soo wana see how she looks like..then we went hunting for her..hah based on descriptions that i have heard from sham on where she works at..i rmbred sham telling me she works near shops where they sell $5 clothes..so we went searching for these type of shops..However to no avail..i think we searched at the wrong place ah..haix..i was dissapointed man..then abt 8pm sham called again from the office..we talked awhile and he kept on asking where i was and what time i was gona come home..hee..so at abt 815pm ayah picked me up from bugis junction taxi stand, yus n dayu went home on their own..
my family and i went to eat at harbour front foodcourt..after which we went to nenek's house..we stayed there till 1130 pm..ard 10 30 sham called me again...bUt i didn't pick up..however i msged him then that i didn't hear d phone ring AGAIn n told him to kol me bck ard 12..i reached home at 1140 like that when sham msged me..using web sms saying "elo adik, da amapai umah lum??" so i answered lah...then we chatted abit and abg sham told me to join alamak.com n chat wif him there..i did But it was so troublesome as i could not recieve his msgs and during this time he called me about 3 or 4 times...then in the end he added me on his msn..apparently he just started dis msn tingy..then at 115am my cuxins ajak kua...lepak kat simpang bedok..so i told abg sham im going out in awhile and he was furious..he was like" dgn sape??beh nak kua gi mane??for what nak kua??" he also said " honestly i dun like u goin out pagi2 buter gini tanpa sebab but lau u nak kua then up to u ah" so i told him i will just go, eat , talk2 then go home and when i reach home i will go online bck..he said ape2 lah..at 230 i was still at simpang and abg sham called..and the first thing he said was " lum balik lagi??" then he gave me alot of sighs and low voices..ard 4 i reached home and i went online..and i saw his msn nick " What_Takes_ U_ Soo_ Long" mm *thinking* was that for me??did he mean why i take so long to come home??niwae i told him abg i da blik n he said SO??i tunggu u sampai tgk U got Served..and showed an angry face!i didnt noe what to answer cox it was kinda farnie in a way..so i kept quiet..then he called at 4+ am..scolding me all dat..asking why go home late all dat..then he said " kalo adik nak kua blik kul 10-11 tu abg tk pasal tapi adik kua pagi2 buter abg marah...lagi2 adik perempuan tau.. kalo ape2 jadi kat adik sape akan menyesal??mak bapa adik jgak.." so i answered ah "ah tu ah mak bapak adik pe yg akan menyesal beh abg kisah uat pe??" then he said "abg nak prevent it from happening!" haix..yelah abg so i just said sorry..after that he told me to sleep and rest..and he called again abit b4 5 to c if i was sleeping..cox when i picked up his call he said " Eh lum tdo lagik??" we talked abit then he called again at 601am, told me to pray subuh.. then at 1047 today he called again to say he has reached home..
at simpang wif my cusinx!!it was fun!!hehe i was wif abg mamat, abg faris and abg din..i showed them sham's pic and they all laughed man!!abg faris was like "nape yaya nak dia??abg mat lagi hensem oi!!n abg faris advised me not to be wif him" talking to them once in a while really helps..cox now i do think u noe...hheee maceh abg2!!love ya!!
ryt now he is outside wif yana...he is goin to his ofis at bugis 2 apparently near to where yana works..so yah dat is what happend..:)
Loving people means giving them the freedom to be who they choose to be and where they choose to be.. Love is allowing people to be in your life out of choice.
Saturday, August 06, 2005
haix...
so many things have happened to me this past few days..i don't know where to begin..
Right now im starting to get confused all over again..yes about sham..some of U may be wondering whats this about sham again??i also dunoo ah people.i oNly Blame myself..feelings have returned..yeah! its that simple..feelings for him returned..I do Not have Any idea how it bloody started..but yeah..past 2 days(friday and saturday) i have been to sham's house with his mum there ofcourse..
Friday..reached sham's house at 1 i think..i Bought fruits for sham and his whole family..i visited sham as he was sick..i ended up staying there till 6..met the father at the bus-stop while waiting for the bus 66 to arrive..i also met sham's neighbours. they are small toddlers named lukman and hakim(a girl and boy)yeah d girl's name is nurul hakim..hehe..kewt eh..and we got so pampered...even sham was pampered with me..and he kissed me on the cheek twice..can u believe it??
Saturday..reached his house at 540 pm..with the food that i promised makcik..since we celebrated my birthday at home..i brought sweet and sour fish, mee hoon and black pepper beef...They LOVED it..heeh..phew!!my effort not gone to waste..i went home at 8pm..during this time sham had already gone out at about 7 to pick yana up from work..and that was when i was disappointed...haix i duno why ah..damn it!!so during that time i talked to his mum and asri; the younger brother. it was alright ah..i did not feel unwelcome..They were really nice to me..Oh yah i m sham's ADIK..since i kept on calling my self his adik he also terikut ah..But..erm.. i oso duno ah eh.. so at 8 i went home eventhough mak sham said to wait for sham..so that he can send me back..But i was wondering..dia da antar yana seh i dun wana be like the 2nd girl!!so i said takpe lah makcik and then mak sham told me to call when i reach home which i did...apparently asri picked up then when i told him to call mak he said "mak!!bakal menantu mak call!"mm i was smiling..i had to admit..well jodoh di tangan tuhan..haix!!why must feelings for him come back??he is not even hensem!!what isit about him that i like??so many qns seh.. and his favourite phrase for me is *"don't think so much..u wana be an idiot??if u don't want then don't think"* RIGHT!!
*The happiest people don't worry too much about whether life is fair or not. They just get on with it.*
Right now im starting to get confused all over again..yes about sham..some of U may be wondering whats this about sham again??i also dunoo ah people.i oNly Blame myself..feelings have returned..yeah! its that simple..feelings for him returned..I do Not have Any idea how it bloody started..but yeah..past 2 days(friday and saturday) i have been to sham's house with his mum there ofcourse..
Friday..reached sham's house at 1 i think..i Bought fruits for sham and his whole family..i visited sham as he was sick..i ended up staying there till 6..met the father at the bus-stop while waiting for the bus 66 to arrive..i also met sham's neighbours. they are small toddlers named lukman and hakim(a girl and boy)yeah d girl's name is nurul hakim..hehe..kewt eh..and we got so pampered...even sham was pampered with me..and he kissed me on the cheek twice..can u believe it??
Saturday..reached his house at 540 pm..with the food that i promised makcik..since we celebrated my birthday at home..i brought sweet and sour fish, mee hoon and black pepper beef...They LOVED it..heeh..phew!!my effort not gone to waste..i went home at 8pm..during this time sham had already gone out at about 7 to pick yana up from work..and that was when i was disappointed...haix i duno why ah..damn it!!so during that time i talked to his mum and asri; the younger brother. it was alright ah..i did not feel unwelcome..They were really nice to me..Oh yah i m sham's ADIK..since i kept on calling my self his adik he also terikut ah..But..erm.. i oso duno ah eh.. so at 8 i went home eventhough mak sham said to wait for sham..so that he can send me back..But i was wondering..dia da antar yana seh i dun wana be like the 2nd girl!!so i said takpe lah makcik and then mak sham told me to call when i reach home which i did...apparently asri picked up then when i told him to call mak he said "mak!!bakal menantu mak call!"mm i was smiling..i had to admit..well jodoh di tangan tuhan..haix!!why must feelings for him come back??he is not even hensem!!what isit about him that i like??so many qns seh.. and his favourite phrase for me is *"don't think so much..u wana be an idiot??if u don't want then don't think"* RIGHT!!
*The happiest people don't worry too much about whether life is fair or not. They just get on with it.*
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
what happened on mY Birthday??
well!!today is my birthday yeay!!
Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday tO u
Happy 18th birthdAy to hidayah
happy Birthday to U
haha!!ok2
so what happened on this special day of mine??u noe i found out i was born at 223 am...cool huh...so damn early...k so i woke up for subuh...and on my hp..heee after praying i slept back..When i woke up i had 5 msgs( shaheerah tk,huda MI, ayah, shimin and someone ah i forgot:p..) d day b4 manu, kak ayu, firah , dayu, sham, abg Raz and some other ppl wished me b4 hand..so yah everyone was wishing me happy 18 birthday...heee thk you very much peeps..Appreciate it sooo much...Love ya all...however im so sad YUSRI didn't wish me...haix...i give up on him ah..no HOPE...
so then today i went to school and i had a bad morning seh..hee i was boarding the bus when my slipper fell off and to make matters worse it fell under the bus!!haix...BUT lucky there was another bus behind so i was not late for school...phew!!heee..yea so sham called me so many times today simply to wish me HAPpy BIrThday haaa...duno how many times already but ALOT Ah..then at 5 his mum called and wished me happy birthday..saying semoga happy slalu work well d normal ah..:) maceh makcik..yea so i went home at 7 pm today..can u believe it??on my birthday in school from 9-7 haix...But oklah...then after i came home my family brought me out to eat however they claim its not a birthday dinner...the birthday dinner will b another day..wif my siblings since all of us are AUGUST babies..heee FINE WIF ME!!yeay!!
so now im waiting for my present..!!!haha counting eh i should recieve aBT 5 ah...:p thick skin ah me..haaa
so now im 18!!wohhoo...can tke driving license now...yeay!!!i love it...heee
happy Birthday YAya!!
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
~argghh~
OMG what the hell is happening to me?!?!
i hate matters of the heart...as u all knw sham has contacted me back..U knw i thought i could take it..we would b gr8 friends together..BUT NOW!!feelings for him might actually come back..and i dun want that...everytime i wanna forget him i tell myself 'he is soo not worth it..he does not even have the looks so why bother"..haix then again there is always the dreaded word 'BUT!'..so today sham called me at 825am!!b4 i went to school..haix those were the days went he woke me up for school..and the first thing he said was " i miSS u babeh" i took it like normal ah..a fren telling a fren that..then i told him to call me back cox i duno ah eh somehow i dun really feel like talking to him but part of me wants to..and he did at 9am..i was at at the bus stop by then..and my voice was very lembut he claimed..so he sensed something was wrong yet i kept on denying it..'YA! WAD WAS WRONG WAS THAT MY FEELINGS 4 U ARE RETURNING.,.DAT SUX!!" THE ONLY PERSON I HAVE TO BLAME IS me>>i should not have contacted him back..haiyo.!!then we were talking and i said k ah bye..then he ask "u kat ne?' i answered "i kat dalam bus". he said " beh asal bye??" i just said "ooo ok..." he replied " k tkpe ah u bye2.." guess he sensed that i didnt wana talk to him n he felt pissed off..then at 328pm he called again..i was having my MCT at that time..and duno why ah eh but today lesson was fun ah!!heee we had to do our group work project and I LIKE!!alot of laughs such that when i picked up his call i was in a good mood..then he said things like i miss u alot so i call u..then asked if i missed him blah3...told me to call him syg*eyes rolls* k lah..all this i take it as a friend tingy ah..i dun wana fall into his trap..nor do i want to play with his feelings...i am gona be careful ryt now!!..but yah!!
And guess what today sham stayed in camp..apparently i got a missed call from his house ah at 740pm so naturally i tot it was him yet it was his mum!!heee his mum said she called cox while she called sham b4 that day she heard a girl's voice in the background and thought it was me..cox the laughter was like mine..haaa but sham said it was not me.it was his fren's fren...i think ILA ah fauzan's gf..haaa so farnie..sham's mum didnt belief..kecian sham..niwae sham's mum invited me to kak nini's birthday party this sunday..haix..i duno ah eh..i wana go but i duno if it is wise..we will see later2...
then there is yusri...i duno why but i feel there will be nothing btw us ah..i FEEL he is AVoidIng me!!i oso duno why---> instinct?? but girls instinct are usually true ryt??argghh!!im so sad..he dun like me at all..today his msn nick puts " The Nurse Asked ME "your GF nvr come see you ah?" and his personal msg "searching" haix...im here yusri!!heee..but ape lah daya ku...both of us not making an effort..we dont talk to each other, dont msg each other..i give up ..:(
AND TMR IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!woohoo!!hahaa
i hate matters of the heart...as u all knw sham has contacted me back..U knw i thought i could take it..we would b gr8 friends together..BUT NOW!!feelings for him might actually come back..and i dun want that...everytime i wanna forget him i tell myself 'he is soo not worth it..he does not even have the looks so why bother"..haix then again there is always the dreaded word 'BUT!'..so today sham called me at 825am!!b4 i went to school..haix those were the days went he woke me up for school..and the first thing he said was " i miSS u babeh" i took it like normal ah..a fren telling a fren that..then i told him to call me back cox i duno ah eh somehow i dun really feel like talking to him but part of me wants to..and he did at 9am..i was at at the bus stop by then..and my voice was very lembut he claimed..so he sensed something was wrong yet i kept on denying it..'YA! WAD WAS WRONG WAS THAT MY FEELINGS 4 U ARE RETURNING.,.DAT SUX!!" THE ONLY PERSON I HAVE TO BLAME IS me>>i should not have contacted him back..haiyo.!!then we were talking and i said k ah bye..then he ask "u kat ne?' i answered "i kat dalam bus". he said " beh asal bye??" i just said "ooo ok..." he replied " k tkpe ah u bye2.." guess he sensed that i didnt wana talk to him n he felt pissed off..then at 328pm he called again..i was having my MCT at that time..and duno why ah eh but today lesson was fun ah!!heee we had to do our group work project and I LIKE!!alot of laughs such that when i picked up his call i was in a good mood..then he said things like i miss u alot so i call u..then asked if i missed him blah3...told me to call him syg*eyes rolls* k lah..all this i take it as a friend tingy ah..i dun wana fall into his trap..nor do i want to play with his feelings...i am gona be careful ryt now!!..but yah!!
And guess what today sham stayed in camp..apparently i got a missed call from his house ah at 740pm so naturally i tot it was him yet it was his mum!!heee his mum said she called cox while she called sham b4 that day she heard a girl's voice in the background and thought it was me..cox the laughter was like mine..haaa but sham said it was not me.it was his fren's fren...i think ILA ah fauzan's gf..haaa so farnie..sham's mum didnt belief..kecian sham..niwae sham's mum invited me to kak nini's birthday party this sunday..haix..i duno ah eh..i wana go but i duno if it is wise..we will see later2...
then there is yusri...i duno why but i feel there will be nothing btw us ah..i FEEL he is AVoidIng me!!i oso duno why---> instinct?? but girls instinct are usually true ryt??argghh!!im so sad..he dun like me at all..today his msn nick puts " The Nurse Asked ME "your GF nvr come see you ah?" and his personal msg "searching" haix...im here yusri!!heee..but ape lah daya ku...both of us not making an effort..we dont talk to each other, dont msg each other..i give up ..:(
AND TMR IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!woohoo!!hahaa