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Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Secrets within secrets

I have a problem. I do want to talk about it but to talk about it would mean to let the secret out. Respecting a certain someone who trusts me with things stops me from being able to communicate properly with people around me. I am not able to speak directly but in circles. And when I do get to let it all out, the person I confide in to does not really decipher deeply cause he or she do not know the whole bigger picture. Even as I am writing this I feel like I am writing in one big circle only to come back to square one; not being able to talk about it and thus people unable to comprehend.. An even more irritating situation is when people think they do know what your problem is but in actual fact that is only a small part of it. And then an even more stupider situation would be, the thing or person you have a problem with Knows what your problem is but ain't doing anythin about it, or maybe is unable to. I have a problem. A big Problem. Who can I talk to that will understand the whole BIG Picture and keep this secret I keep, a secret?

If you want Love, Love you will get.

By changing the way you think of a situation, you change the bad energy.

I am not going to a dark place.

Try not to take things too seriously.

Its all easy to take in and remember BUT isit that simple to follow..?

Why do guys act as though you are their world at one time and then treat you as how they usually do on the other? You can never know what they are thinking at the time and then when you pull back, they get taken aback. It somehow is always us girls having to give in when they feel like being close to you and us girls having to understand why they are distant and thus us having to distant ourselves too even if we don't want to.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Beautiful Disaster

It is merely the power of suggestion. Whether you believe or not is entirely your choice. But to accept and embrace the findings of some other people is a gift. A gift of being able to share and learn new things.

Yesternight was a wonderful night to look out at the moon. It was around 6+pm in Adelaide, over in the skies were a fog of cloudy skies covering the bright light. With a gust of wind, the clouds moved sideways revealing the oh-so-beautiful full moon shining ever so brightly. It was enticing and had a serenity which only can be experienced and remembered. It was beautiful..

Credits to MR Q.

FME test today was disastrous. Thank God I am not the only one who thought so. Now, that is a relief! But now that the test is over, I can so look forward to the trip to Perth in exactly a week's time.

I am getting paranoid about the smallest details. I do not want the semester to end, but I want to graduate now. Confused? So am I.. Sometimes, I have to remind myself to only look ahead as far as tomorrow...

I can finally begin on the scrap book!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Random Babbles

Currently 545pm here in adelaide. Just finished cooking for break fast which is in 20 minutes time and also finished revising for the upcoming test this tuesday. Finish? mmm.. It never will be seriously. But I am done for the day I suppose. Never could get the butt down still with an open book on the table since I lived here. The cousin is trying very hard to finish his assignments due on tuesday too. He has been procastinating alot and is freaking out. Well padan muka! hehehe, kidding..

A week before the end of the 1st term of the semester. And then off to pErth to meet the lovely sister and cousin-in-law to celebrate Raya with. Obviously I wished I could be home but then no money leh so the next best plan will be to Perth then. Kill 2 birds in one stone anyways.. Get to travel and see what's there and also get to meet the family! woohoo! Speaking of which, I so need to make sure we know where to visit once we are there. Or else, it will be a wasted 10 days trip.

Report due tomorrow has finally been collated and ready to be printed. Wohoo! Most of the time, I do last minute work & always freak out when it is not done. But I make sure it will get done on time and when it is already done, you feel satisfaction. Then I always tell myself the next time I will have to begin earlier for obvious reasons but then...... yea, who listens?

Spring is finally here!! I know it is cause I am not wearing my hoodie when I go to school now. Hooyah!! It feels just like the Singapore weather only alot cooler.

Got the stuffs for our scrap book. I was thinking what to I entitle it?

Our Aussie life
Life in Australia
Our stories away from home..

Any suggestions!???

I just missed the AIESEC elections today.. On purpose.. I mean I gota set my priorities right? I need to study for my test which before today I had not touched at all!! Oh well.. I don't feel Aiesec-y any more anyways..

I am starting to read back all my entries and am beginning to realise I do not have much to jot down anymore. But then to delete the blog will be wasteful. All the memories, pains, happiness... mm.. Maybe I shall just leave it but be inactive.. No one reads anyway...

Puzzles sometimes answer themselves in their own time and sometimes you just never do find them, cause you weren't meant to. But then, some people believe puzzles have several possible solutions and there is always an answer to them. What do you reckon?

Saturday, September 06, 2008

Delicacies

Get asked would you rather have someone whom you love or be with someone whom loves you more? The heart tells you one thing and then the whole world, well literally, tells you another. Then because it gets so frustrating and confusing, in the end you just remind yourself, you do not want to bother about this and just wait and see what happens. Right?

Well yeah, you can wait and just see what happens but then you can also do something and make sure what you want DO happen! Get what i mean? No? Doesn't matter, let's just not bother about this. HAH!

Just out of curiousity.. Why isit can't cousins marry? I mean yeah they can but its not advisable.. Why? Anyone knows? Besides the usual excuses of hereditary diseases, what else?

Nearly a week already since Ramdhan started! Hoo yah! Time do pass by damn quick.

Food for thought?

Kueh Dadah tak menjadi.. Well atleast it tastes like one.. Hehe

Whole meal for the 6th day of ramadan '08

Full western plate anyone?

Notice the bandung and cake!? YUM!!!

Should I get PR or not? Decisions, decisions...

Thursday, September 04, 2008

I thought they are already tied up!

This is seriously no longer funny anymore. I thought the Devils are supposed to be tied up by now. It is already the 3rd day of Ramadhan! Or did some of them get loose? heheh

Okay, what the heck am I blabbering on about? I dreamt again last night.

I was in this bus and I was with my chinese friends from high school. If I remember right, they were, adeline, santi, elizabeth? Anyways, so we were in the SBS and there was these 2 malay guys. One of which caught my attention. What made me think about him till now is the fact that he dressed up like those old age kinda guy. Like in the 70s. During mummy dearest time. But anyways, he had my attention the whole bus trip. And then suddenly, me and my group of girls alighted at the interchange and was heading to some junk foodstore where we were late for work. Whilst walking, suddenly this motorbike zoomed passed us and then somehow went as slow as our brisk walking pace. Then we stopped and the bike stopped and out came the helmet. It was HIM! One of my close guy friends. Apparently, he was sending his friend to work and somehow we met. Then we saw each other and before I was gona head to work, we had a short conversation which went like this :

Me: da habis kerja?
Him: Lagi satu jam..(with a serious face)
Me: ok..
Him: Nanti keluar ah..
Me: UH?
Him: nanti keluar.. Jumpe jap..
Me: oh okay.

Then I left.. And the last I remembered, we girls were running around away from some mice? I know, weird dreams!! No connection what so ever.

Anyhoos, just a picture I thought I wana share. It is my 1st Aiesec Conference. A great experience!

Monday, September 01, 2008

Isit okay to feel both thankful and sorry at the same time?

I have been dreaming alot these past few days. The cousin has been telling me that I have been mumbling in my sleep. That is so unglam lah. Like as far as I know, I have never been told that I mumble in my sleep. I have been told that I sleep like a dead person only. Oh shyt!

There are 2 distinct dreams that I can remember exactly. One was about this guy whom I am close to and we live together. So in this house, there is my parents, me & him. At first. Then suddenly, a girl friend of mine, hana from malaysia, moved in for some reason. Note that I do not like this hana, in real life. hahah! So anyways, she shared the room with the guy. Trust me I do not know why she did not share the room with me instead, you know being girl & girl. So then the guy's room had their beds apart with a study table in between at first. So it was maghrib, I went to take my wudhu and when I came out, I saw the guy and hana just finished praying. And they were praying together. And then I got jealous for some reason because this guy has NEVER been an imam to anyone much alone a girl and in my mind, I was thinking only husband and wife do that. And I was thinking something is happening between them. And then the next day when I walked past their room, I saw the bed moved closer. Now without the table in between. Since then, I did not talk to the guy though he kept on denying things cause I was angry and jealous I suppose..

Then another dream I had was in this whole house was full of ladies. All of whom I know. Cousins, aunties, Grandma. And we went to this show. Upon reaching home, a girlfriend of mine who was with me got a call. An aunt of mine had died. The irony is, I just met her after so long 2 days ago and we were wearing black and the aunt is an english woman. And I woke up, knowing that I feel sad but thankful that the call was not about dad.

Its just weird lah kan! These 2 stories. I have no idea what triggered it to happen but yah, it did.

On a lighter note, I was at a meat shop with the cousin yesterday and I saw a hot and tall, good looking guy! And the best part is he is a muslim!! He said assalamualaikum and was speaking one language which I will think is either lebanese or arab? But even my cousin agrees he is hot! Omg!! There are hot muslims here in ADL. FinallY!! And for all you know, he is living around the area since he bought halal meat at that shop..! WOHOO!!

Hahah.. OKay dee outs. I have got to start revising!

Perth in 4 weeks?


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And when I do get to let it all out, the person I confide in to does not really decipher deeply cause he or she do not know the whole bigger picture. Even as I am writing this I feel like I am writing in one big circle only to come back to square one; not being able to talk about it and thus people unable to comprehend.. An even more irritating situation is when people think they do know what your problem is but in actual fact that is only a small part of it. And then an even more stupider situation would be, the thing or person you have a problem with Knows what your problem is but ain't doing anythin about it, or maybe is unable to. I have a problem. A big Problem. Who can I talk to that will understand the whole BIG Picture and keep this secret I keep, a secret? If you want Love, Love you will get. By changing the way you think of a situation, you change the bad energy. I am not going to a dark place. Try not to take things too seriously. Its all easy to take in and remember BUT isit that simple to follow..? Why do guys act as though you are their world at one time and then treat you as how they usually do on the other? You can never know what they are thinking at the time and then when you pull back, they get taken aback. It somehow is always us girls having to give in when they feel like being close to you and us girls having to understand why they are distant and thus us having to distant ourselves too even if we don't want to. 5:36 PM · Tuesday, September 16, 2008 Beautiful Disaster It is merely the power of suggestion. Whether you believe or not is entirely your choice. But to accept and embrace the findings of some other people is a gift. A gift of being able to share and learn new things. Yesternight was a wonderful night to look out at the moon. It was around 6+pm in Adelaide, over in the skies were a fog of cloudy skies covering the bright light. With a gust of wind, the clouds moved sideways revealing the oh-so-beautiful full moon shining ever so brightly. It was enticing and had a serenity which only can be experienced and remembered. It was beautiful.. Credits to *MR Q.* FME test today was disastrous. Thank God I am not the only one who thought so. Now, that is a relief! But now that the test is over, I can so look forward to the trip to Perth in exactly a week's time. I am getting paranoid about the smallest details. I do not want the semester to end, but I want to graduate now. Confused? So am I.. Sometimes, I have to remind myself to only look ahead as far as tomorrow... I can finally begin on the scrap book! 4:29 PM · Sunday, September 14, 2008 Random Babbles Currently 545pm here in adelaide. Just finished cooking for break fast which is in 20 minutes time and also finished revising for the upcoming test this tuesday. Finish? mmm.. It never will be seriously. But I am done for the day I suppose. Never could get the butt down still with an open book on the table since I lived here. The cousin is trying very hard to finish his assignments due on tuesday too. He has been procastinating alot and is freaking out. Well padan muka! hehehe, kidding.. A week before the end of the 1st term of the semester. And then off to pErth to meet the lovely sister and cousin-in-law to celebrate Raya with. Obviously I wished I could be home but then no money leh so the next best plan will be to Perth then. Kill 2 birds in one stone anyways.. Get to travel and see what's there and also get to meet the family! woohoo! Speaking of which, I so need to make sure we know where to visit once we are there. Or else, it will be a wasted 10 days trip. Report due tomorrow has finally been collated and ready to be printed. Wohoo! Most of the time, I do last minute work & always freak out when it is not done. But I make sure it will get done on time and when it is already done, you feel satisfaction. Then I always tell myself the next time I will have to begin earlier for obvious reasons but then...... yea, who listens? Spring is finally here!! I know it is cause I am not wearing my hoodie when I go to school now. Hooyah!! It feels just like the Singapore weather only alot cooler. Got the stuffs for our scrap book. I was thinking what to I entitle it? Our Aussie life Life in Australia Our stories away from home.. Any suggestions!??? I just missed the AIESEC elections today.. On purpose.. I mean I gota set my priorities right? I need to study for my test which before today I had not touched at all!! Oh well.. I don't feel Aiesec-y any more anyways.. I am starting to read back all my entries and am beginning to realise I do not have much to jot down anymore. But then to delete the blog will be wasteful. All the memories, pains, happiness... mm.. Maybe I shall just leave it but be inactive.. No one reads anyway... Puzzles sometimes answer themselves in their own time and sometimes you just never do find them, cause you weren't meant to. But then, some people believe puzzles have several possible solutions and there is always an answer to them. What do you reckon? 4:30 PM · Saturday, September 06, 2008 Delicacies Get asked would you rather have someone whom you love or be with someone whom loves you more? The heart tells you one thing and then the whole world, well literally, tells you another. Then because it gets so frustrating and confusing, in the end you just remind yourself, you do not want to bother about this and just wait and see what happens. Right? Well yeah, you can wait and just see what happens but then you can also do something and make sure what you want DO happen! Get what i mean? No? Doesn't matter, let's just not bother about this. HAH! Just out of curiousity.. Why isit can't cousins marry? I mean yeah they can but its not advisable.. Why? Anyone knows? Besides the usual excuses of hereditary diseases, what else? Nearly a week already since Ramdhan started! Hoo yah! Time do pass by damn quick. Food for thought? Kueh Dadah tak menjadi.. Well atleast it tastes like one.. Hehe Whole meal for the 6th day of ramadan '08 Full western plate anyone? Notice the bandung and cake!? YUM!!! Should I get PR or not? Decisions, decisions... 9:51 PM · Thursday, September 04, 2008 I thought they are already tied up! This is seriously no longer funny anymore. I thought the Devils are supposed to be tied up by now. It is already the 3rd day of Ramadhan! Or did some of them get loose? heheh Okay, what the heck am I blabbering on about? I dreamt again last night. I was in this bus and I was with my chinese friends from high school. If I remember right, they were, adeline, santi, elizabeth? Anyways, so we were in the SBS and there was these 2 malay guys. One of which caught my attention. What made me think about him till now is the fact that he dressed up like those old age kinda guy. Like in the 70s. During mummy dearest time. But anyways, he had my attention the whole bus trip. And then suddenly, me and my group of girls alighted at the interchange and was heading to some junk foodstore where we were late for work. Whilst walking, suddenly this motorbike zoomed passed us and then somehow went as slow as our brisk walking pace. Then we stopped and the bike stopped and out came the helmet. It was HIM! One of my close guy friends. Apparently, he was sending his friend to work and somehow we met. Then we saw each other and before I was gona head to work, we had a short conversation which went like this : Me: da habis kerja? Him: Lagi satu jam..(with a serious face) Me: ok.. Him: Nanti keluar ah.. Me: UH? Him: nanti keluar.. Jumpe jap.. Me: oh okay. Then I left.. And the last I remembered, we girls were running around away from some mice? I know, weird dreams!! No connection what so ever. Anyhoos, just a picture I thought I wana share. It is my 1st Aiesec Conference. A great experience! 12:11 AM · Monday, September 01, 2008 Isit okay to feel both thankful and sorry at the same time? I have been dreaming alot these past few days. The cousin has been telling me that I have been mumbling in my sleep. That is so unglam lah. Like as far as I know, I have never been told that I mumble in my sleep. I have been told that I sleep like a dead person only. Oh shyt! There are 2 distinct dreams that I can remember exactly. One was about this guy whom I am close to and we live together. So in this house, there is my parents, me & him. At first. Then suddenly, a girl friend of mine, hana from malaysia, moved in for some reason. Note that I do not like this hana, in real life. hahah! So anyways, she shared the room with the guy. Trust me I do not know why she did not share the room with me instead, you know being girl & girl. So then the guy's room had their beds apart with a study table in between at first. So it was maghrib, I went to take my wudhu and when I came out, I saw the guy and hana just finished praying. And they were praying together. And then I got jealous for some reason because this guy has NEVER been an imam to anyone much alone a girl and in my mind, I was thinking only husband and wife do that. And I was thinking something is happening between them. And then the next day when I walked past their room, I saw the bed moved closer. Now without the table in between. Since then, I did not talk to the guy though he kept on denying things cause I was angry and jealous I suppose.. Then another dream I had was in this whole house was full of ladies. All of whom I know. Cousins, aunties, Grandma. And we went to this show. Upon reaching home, a girlfriend of mine who was with me got a call. An aunt of mine had died. The irony is, I just met her after so long 2 days ago and we were wearing black and the aunt is an english woman. And I woke up, knowing that I feel sad but thankful that the call was not about dad. Its just weird lah kan! These 2 stories. I have no idea what triggered it to happen but yah, it did. On a lighter note, I was at a meat shop with the cousin yesterday and I saw a hot and tall, good looking guy! And the best part is he is a muslim!! He said assalamualaikum and was speaking one language which I will think is either lebanese or arab? But even my cousin agrees he is hot! Omg!! There are hot muslims here in ADL. FinallY!! And for all you know, he is living around the area since he bought halal meat at that shop..! WOHOO!! Hahah.. OKay dee outs. I have got to start revising! Perth in 4 weeks? 11:09 AM ·