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Monday, December 22, 2008

Keeping it strong

Been some time since I blogged. Only because, I have no idea what to blog about. Things happen during the days but its all only for the mind. A short kenduri for the aunty was done yesterday. 40 days has passed. It's fast. Whilst reading the doa's, I had to keep it all in. I fought so hard not to let any of those raindrop's fall. Others have gotten over it, somehow I have not. The wound is still raw. I still am not able to sleep on her bed, and I do have day dreams about her. Only I cannot tell. The pastry she left me is still untouched. I feel guilty, distraught that I never got to see & kiss her for the last time. I needed someone to just hold me yesterday. To tell me its okay to let the tears go. But no one was there. I guess, I will just have to learn that I am alone.. Always. No matter what he, she or they say. As they may be having a fun time outside or anywhere else and not thinking about you.

I have to keep strong..


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