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Me.

I'm one of God's creation
A plain girl who realise her full potential is barely reached
Babysit, eating, sleeping and dancing is her best leisure ability
Loves her family & friends to bits
No life ahead without them in my life..
Currently 7hrs away from home
Right now loving the life she is leading in Adelaide only because there are so many things she got herself involved in..
And it is not worthless involvements, mind you..


Sunday, June 05, 2005
mm its such a short happiness or isit i'm just being paranoid..

harlow...well today is already sunday 5th june..isn't that fast??

well lets c guess what people!!yesterday was 4h june right? it was me and sham's 2nd month FRIENDSHIP anniversary!!!wakakak...is there such a thing??woah!!just 2 months and i have went through alot with him...& i mean alot!! especially with the yana problem..

lets see, well yesterday i went to meet sham at his house around 2+pm..we didn't know where to go so we sat at the areas around his block.then he let me read his letter which was given by yana...OMG to know about it all...mmm...total heartbreak!!i didn't talk to him for like an hour, he apologised n yet i still shut up...then i thought lets not spoil the day..so then we went to eat at mcdonalds near the bedok reservoir there..there he took my hand n kissed it and said happy 2nd mth frenship anniversary ..heee....yeah it was a happy one at dat time..and then i went to his house to tompang sembahyang asar...---> *this is a mistake that i made.i should not have stepped in his house as my mum didn't let me go to his house..reason being me n him we are not even matair so tak manis perempuan masuk rumah lelaki..and yet i still went..to pray...though it was for a good reason still i feel i betrayed ibu..n i regret that...but after that we went to watch the soccer match at kallang..it started at 8..i met his 2 other brothers..asri and norman, his sister-in-law and his cousin.singapore won 2-0 to malaysia!!yippee!! when singapore scored d first goal he his brother and his cousin who was sitting in d same row as me all stood up and made noise...heee dat was farnie...then at the 2nd goal sham shouted "kalau goal aku cium!" at first i tot nothing of it ah..i was like ape2 ah dia nak buat..then suddenly singapore scored the 2nd goal and he KISSED ME!!on the cheeck ofcourse...heee i was shocked....i admit i smiled...but total shock!!!infront of his family??i just kept quiet then he tegur me he said " kan i dah cakap kalau goal i cium u.."then he smiled n i jus smiled back..then all of us went back home..it was a gr8 day ah saturday...the best 2nd month friendship anniversary..

then today..i got a call from his ex..she told me she got beaten up by a group of girls..i was shocked..she was crying and all...seriously i am not thinking about her getting beaten up part..but about myself..you see cox yana got beaten up she wana report it to the police...yana called sham's house just now and sham was not at home..he lepaks with his memebrs at tekau..so his mum answered..nad his mum told yana that yesterday sham was with me the whole day..she even told yana that i came to their house...damn!!if the police is on this case..and ibu and ayah finds out that i was at their house..they will blow...!!cox ibu told me not to go to his house as it is not nice for a girl to go there..some more me and sham we r just frens...nothing more..so why go there.that is what i am scared of.i do not want to involve my family..i love them too much and i don't want their good reputation to be ruined... i am so useless as a daughter...i m a bad daughter...:( this is just all that i am scared of..allah tolong lah aku...

right now all im thinking about is is he worth it?is he worth ruining my family's reputation...i should just leave him...just be friends..i can find a better one...aarrggghh!!!i love my parents...i feel i should tell them the truth...and mebe i will ....sham y must u make my life like this..in 2 months everything go haywire...
i hate myself.....