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Me.

I'm one of God's creation
A plain girl who realise her full potential is barely reached
Babysit, eating, sleeping and dancing is her best leisure ability
Loves her family & friends to bits
No life ahead without them in my life..
Currently 7hrs away from home
Right now loving the life she is leading in Adelaide only because there are so many things she got herself involved in..
And it is not worthless involvements, mind you..


Wednesday, May 25, 2005
wads wrong wif me!!!y do i feel so restless...

haix...its been a week now since the day sham n d bitch patched up..man time flies very fast eh..right now my mum, dad, aunty & nenek knows about this sham thingy..all because i have not been eating nor sleeping well..for 3 whole days, i didn't on my hp simply to forget about him..and it was working!!with d help of my family always around me i was forgetting him and i took d 'break up' as a lesson of my life...

until saturday...he called me alot of times..n since i offed my hp it was diverted to my house.My aunt was the one who always picked it up & she told me sham sounds sad and all that i m ignoring him..N damn it felt gd to ignore him!!
then sunday morning, my nenek picked up the phone n not blaming her as she did not recognise the voice called me...it was SHAM!!i said hello n he said hello!!when i heard his voice i was quiet for like 2 whole minutes n he kept on asking 'yah, asal u diam'??then after d shock i said tkde apa2...then he asked y i hilangkan diri je all of a sudden (d chick to ask me dat)..i told him u shld noe y wad..then he said 'yah lah tapi tkan hilang trus seh...' IS he DUMB or is HE DUMB!!
n unfortunatley after dat he called everyday, n i became attached to it again...n now again i cant live wifout his calls!!!damn it!! y m i so weak!!!

its gd to hear his voice u noe....yesterday he told me this..'Yah, u kow sometimes i wish i was with you n not her"...yes i was happy he said that but i also felt like he is making me & himself more confused. At one time he says im his fren then at another....haix....he also said things like" i wish one day i can kiss u" ape tu!!..arrrgggggghhhh!!!

i really like him...they say when you like a man, it doesn't mean you have to be with him...inside me there is dis hope of getting him back but will i??will he come back for me??will he realise who he really want??so many questions unanswered...this is always the case...am i stupid??is he worth it??--->well obviously no but haix....what do i do??do i wait for him??do i continue contacting him??shld i have hopes??damn!!!

allah tabahkan lah hatiku oh ya allah!!tunjuk ku lah pangkal jln yg benar...pulihkan lah hati ku secepat mungkin...seandainya kau lah maha pengasih dan maha penyanyang...

*Lost affection is a pity, but true love is eternal..
++no matter how you feel, you are healing..; i hope so...haix...